Not that I am complaining. As was pointed out by fellow poets, a 50% acceptance rate for poetry this year is not something to be worried about. No, it's more how I am feeling in relation to the writing on the whole.
I have observed over the year so far that generally speaking, there are peaks and troughs, some proto-poems work, some don't. The act of writing is more important than any individual poem. Much easier to let go of your attachment when another proto-poem comes along for you to work on.
Previously a poem that didn't work or one that I felt wasn't up to standard would have been done and dusted, moved on from or promoted to draft status within 3 days/ 6 hours at most.
The poem I have been writing and have just completed today began 3 weeks ago. It has been difficult to maintain a positive attitude to the act of writing when the long troughs stretch out over weeks and the peaks never seem to do the same.
Yesterday I was sure that after today's session I would be moving on. Yet as the process has shown, time and again, what may look/sound bad in one session can change in another.
This is a lesson I keep coming across, though it doesn't seem to stick.
So what changed between now and yesterday? A good night's sleep, writing early? I think it was form; cutting lines in half. Probably a combination. In any event, another lesson that I have learned and forgotten.
No doubt I will be able to copy and paste this post next month. So, in a note to myself:
- trust the process it has a phenomenal success rate
- if something's not working, try a good sleep, an early start and a change of approach or angle
- cultivate some patience